What a turnaround!

Life was different a few years back, i was a simple guy with no malice in mind and very emotional, foolish kid only thinking about friends and my work. But now, I cannot be more complicated, all kind of emotions are flowing through my head, fear, anger, pity but no love, i don't have time or space to think about my friends, but thankfully, some of them do think about me and take time from their lives to meet me, call me, i love them for it. I think this is the only payback of being foolishly honest all those years. Now, there is nothing certain, things look a lot gloomy and dark but i want to get out of this mess first of all and then think about how i want to shape up the rest of my life. I coudn't sleep whole night, looked at my mom in her room sleeping and i was very scared, that what will i do without her, almost alone in this world with nothing to look forward to, so much so that i thought of ending my life after her. But i do change my thinking every once in a while that there is no point sulking and there are so many things to do, visit, and feel happy about. I pray to god that i give all of my loved ones a happy life for the rest of my years.


I don't want to be weak but smart and cheeky to defeat the people ruined my life. I hope god will give me strength and happiness to be that person.