"I know better than that, that will never happen again" - Maverick. Same here, dude. How can i be so stupid to ruin my super life like that, i am averagely smart, making good money for myself, earn good reputation among friends, love my family, super emotional, excited about life, all gone down the drain with 1, 1 bad move. It sucks! It's like i was on the top of the trail, and fall to the ground full of shit, now i need enough water to clean this shit off me. I could have a perfect life with a perfect girl, but not to be, not in this life i guess. I don't how it is to die alone, may be i will soon find out :).
I used to tell people that it is easy to live when you know someone else ruined your life, but very very hard when you know that you yourself screwed it. I see people everyday and my heart sinks for couple of moments but then i get myself busy in something, i don't want to think about it but then i can't afford to do that. I wish i can breath fresh air soon, how much more of suffocation, how much more of a life when you keep wishing that it might get better, i want to live a better life, experience it, enjoy it and then die. Life is a bitch, ain't it. God gave me a super quality though - "Humour", i am glad i have it, keeps me going. Make me tough too God, make me determined, focussed.
I used to tell people that it is easy to live when you know someone else ruined your life, but very very hard when you know that you yourself screwed it. I see people everyday and my heart sinks for couple of moments but then i get myself busy in something, i don't want to think about it but then i can't afford to do that. I wish i can breath fresh air soon, how much more of suffocation, how much more of a life when you keep wishing that it might get better, i want to live a better life, experience it, enjoy it and then die. Life is a bitch, ain't it. God gave me a super quality though - "Humour", i am glad i have it, keeps me going. Make me tough too God, make me determined, focussed.
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