Everyone is looking for that beautiful romantic story in their lives, someone who selflessly looks out for them, someone who will come running to hug you on a good or a terrible news, but it's more tricky than one think. I never understood when they say "Finding a true love is only few's destiny", I thought everyone would get someone like that, but it is not true, I realized it after few broken relationships and then I got married. It's weird I just proposed a single girl all my life and that too when I met her for the first time after 6 month of being a pen friend and she called me after 6 years down her marriage saying "I should have said yes to you", there was nothing more painful to hear that although I was fighting some legal battles of myself. I looked at her profile that night after so many years and she looked lovely. I wished her marriage works out and she doesn't have to say that to anyone ever again, well, my wish came true. For a more selfish part of me thought, I should have asked for something else. I watch all these romantic movies, and being such a romantic person myself, it's ironic that no one could love me back the same way, or may be I have been looking at all wrong places, I didn't have the experience of finding her out in the crowd. And today, I am standing here almost empty handed, no one to share my thoughts to, no good friend who will ready to die for me like I can, not a very bright career in front of me, standing on the corpses of all bad decisions I took which eventually led me at this point. I came out of very tough situations, but this time, I am not able to gather enough courage to collect all my domino and start over, it's just too tiring, too much effort, too much dedication, I don't have that push left inside me. Alas, I wish I was the guy 10 years back, I wish I can just rewind everything and start afresh. Now, do I dedicate my life to others as I did or ruin it even more for a more selfish path.
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