Life teaches you a lot!

Every single day, life teaches you something. What i learned today is that it's very important to keep your feelings inside as the moment you let it out and express, it loses its worth. It's like gold until it's treasured in some corner of your heart, and it's a stone as soon as it's released. I should make this a part of a "new" me to speak as much as required and not say much, half of which doesn't even mean anything. I guess i am not the first person who knows this fact but now i know it as well. I try to avoid being sad daily so that i gets prepared for the unknown which is going to happen in the future, so that i don't regret losing this time when i go through tough times. It's very disheartening though to hear some things from the people you don't want to, although you always have this fear that they might say something to you, but you still don't want to, but the lesson is not to push them, because once they say it, they said it.


I really feel like a fool for being the kind of person i am, although my god knows that i never want to hurt anyone, specially the people i love but the disadvantage of being me is that i somehow push them to let me know that i don't matter. I didn't want to sulk, i hope i never do. I don't know what i am saying but suddenly the rain doesn't feel nice, the breeze doesn't soothe me, the little project i started is not attracting me, the ideas/questions i had for the lawyer, i don't feel like talking/thinking about it, don't feel like watching TV, don't feel like going home, eat or anything. I don't want to hurt no one, god please help me not to hurt anyone, please.